I am

the tea light in the black hole.

I took this title for my blog from a short, forgotten piece I wrote awhile back and I understand now why it means so much to me.

i have so much potential to push out the darkness in my house, my school, my city, my country. I can change the world.

I haven't felt like this in so long and I'm just welcoming it with open arms.

I have my life in place. I know what matters, and this will serve as a future reminder to myself of what I am and what I need to continue to be:

I am a follower of my Lord Jesus Christ and I forever will be. He is the only one who can fulfill me this way. No one else comes even close to where He and I stand, nobody can touch us.

I will cry out as long as I live that I am fully His. I will forever recognize that Jesus died for my sins, for my redemption. He gave His life so that I, and insignificant, unworthy sinner, could be saved. He loves me. And that's what matters most to me now, and hopefully forever.

So when our wandering brothers and sisters sin, when I am being tugged to the end of my rope, if I ever again fail in the forgiving eyes of my Savior, when the darkness of our society descends upon my vision, engulfing my life, I'm going to pull Him out from inside of me and use it as my tea light in this black hole.